Depression

Do you ever feel depressed?

I am a student since forever (like literally forever) but bila dah sampai tahap PhD sekarang nie, I've never been in depressed situation like this before. There are too many things happened at the same time to me, sampai kadang-kadang I rasa I taknak bangun tidur sebab I taknak fikir about my problems at all.

I tak cerita kat orang sebab I taktau I nak cerita kat sapa. I have no one here. I takdak kawan, my family is too busy with their problems so I wont bother them. I have a boyfriend who don't spend much time with me since he is working and we are in a long distance relationship and phone call doesn't seems enough for me and he is too busy with his friends. I have a financial problem, my phone didn't worked since the last two days and I don't have money to repair or even buy a new one.

Since I am a student, I have a lot of workloads right now but I don't even bother to do them. I will start to cry every time I'm getting ready to do my works, and I don't even know why. It's been more than twice that I've been thinking to quit my study and start to find a job so I don't have to be in these states anymore. I can stop bothering and burdening my parents, I can live with my own, I can have a new phone, people will start looking up to me because I have money and etc. 

I pernah tidur seharian, dari siang sampailah keesokkan harinya, sampai my housemate tanya am I okay? I can stay for hours in a dark room all by myself and mengadap laptop but doing nothing. I dont go out often since I have no friend here. My housemate is a working woman so I usually stay home alone and talk to myself. I cook every time I feel stress. I watch movies. I cry a lot missing my man even he doesn't even know. I eat a lot but all those junk foods. I sleep a lot too. 

Now tell me, am I depressed?